how would u define this word?
how could u tell that somebody's being sincere or not..
i couldnt tell if its because of the fact that i'm growing older n older..
i find it really hard to trust ppl..
not tat i doubt their personality..
but so many things happened and its jus really tiring and hurting to keep gettin dissapointed..

i hate it when people tell me they do this for me..
do that for me..
what the hell..
if u wanna do something.. just do it..
stop making up excuses or label it as.."i did it for you..or i did it because of you.."
and then make yourself feel better as u proceed with what u plan to do..

someone told me that he had to leave me alone for my own good..
to make me more mature..fuck it..
someone told me that she did this..read that..bought this..
to help me..is all because of me..

i have no idea why i keep getting surrounded by people who likes to label
and justify their actions with " its for you..." and keeps gettin away with it..
i just hate it..
i'm not your excuse to do anything..
i do not say "i cannot be your friend for ur own good.."
i just tell u i knot be your friend..
i do not say "the reason i did this is because of you"
i just say.. i did this because i want to..

stop taking me forgranted and treating me like i'm so dumb ass..
i jus h-a-t-e it!

i finally got my internet connection done!!!
yay!!!! jus few minutes ago..
and i wanna start bloggin already
omgggg.. hhahahah

anywayss!!
miss zm is super the pissed off about yesterday night
oh my goodnesss..
i was gonna meet up with a fren for dinner las night and u know..
now tat i dun live in the city anymore.. i hafta suffer from the inconvenience of finding a car park..
because its just so damn hard to get a parking space in the melbourne cbd!

so here's the story..
i was waiting for this car to leave..
they were taking a very long time coz they were fixing the baby sit at the back seat..
so i waited larh!
then i saw the driver doing a hand signal showing that there's a car behind to another car in front of them..
so obviously the driver is telling them tat i'm waiting already right???!!!!!
so when the car drove out of the car space..
i drove in..
but the next thing i know
this bloody honda with a number plate of TUE 851!!
accelerated into the car space as well..wat a fucker!
so then.. both our cars were half occupying the car space..
neither of us wanted to give way..

such a loser!!!!
WHICH FUCKIN GUY ON EARTH FIGHTS FOR A CAR SPACE WITH A GIRL??!!!
WHAT HAPPENED TO GENTLEMAN-CY ?!!!!!!!! bull shit!!
stupid girlfriend sitting next to him also act like a fuckin useless piece of shit
i bet he's gonna get dumped soon.. loserrrrrr!! arghhhh

so.. i din wanna look stupid when waiting i called my fren and talked to him on the fon..
keeping myself occupied..

then.. i saw a bloody flashlight from across the street! fuck-ed*
this bunch of stupid ang mosss.. "jiak ba oo eng" (quote: cs, language: hokkien) ..
meaning.. too free nothing better to do..
they were taking pictures of the whole scene!!! bloody hell..
not like my car is undistinguishable larh! (is that even a word) urghhhh!

anywayss.. then the tension was still going on and we were still waiting..
so two of the fucking ang mos came over and he was making hand signals of car crash..
super the kepo omg.. cant he jus fucking mind his own business
he thinks he's damn cool.. fuck off
and then he saw me and he was like "OMG!! SHE'S ON THE PHONE!" (giggling like a jerk!)
den he came to me.. "heads or tails?".. i just fuckin ignore him larh..
tat stupid loser in the fuckin honda chose heads..
den stupid angmo tossed the coin.. and "" HEAD IT IS!" FUCK-ED ..for the second time..
that fucker was like " u won(to him).. u lost (to me)"..
and he bloody attempted to push my car..ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
damn pissed off..

*miss zhimin so wanted to knock him down larh! but miss zm wont dirty her mini because that fucker is jus not even worth a tiny nanometer of it.. mini deserves better!* hmmph!

so i was on the fon with my fren and he asked me to honked the fucker..
but i dun want to!! honking is like sending out signals to attract attention..
its like
" heyyy.. people.. fucking look at me plsss.. i'm a loser stucked in half the car park and have too much time to waste waiting there like a fuckin idiot!"

and so.. i wind down my window and yelled at them..
" I BLOODY CAME HERE FIRST! THE DRIVER TOLD U THAT I WAS BEHIND AND U STILL CAME IN!"
after i said that.. i was crying already..
i cry when i get angry and scold people.. its damn loser i know..
but the tears jus came out..
i was telling my fren "omg omg.. i think i'm gonna cry.. shit shit shit!".. den really cry..grrrrrrr*
stupid-monkey-faced-loser had to make his girlfriend talk to me..
and the girl.. yess.. the girl.. not the guy.. wind down her window and said "we were here first!"

then.. i bloody stared at the fucker into the eyes but that stupid fucker still acted like a fucker..
omggg!
then my fren was like..
" aiyar.. jus leave larh.. he's jus gonna look like a loser for stealing a car space from a girl"
then i finally came to my sense and decided tat its jus not worth the time anymore..
so i left them a "FUCKER!" and left..
lucky enough for me..
after i barely drove for a minute.. there were two cars that left straight away..
i felt stupid for a sec..
why the hell did we fight for so long when there's two parking available jus few steps away?!

anywayss.. i was feeling much better coz i was able to get a parking straight away so it wasnt too bad..
but then.. we walked pass the stupid honda when we're on the way to the restaurant lar!
tats when i get super the emotional again!!

miss zhimin wants revenge!
1) put nails underneath his tyre so when he drives his car out.. it will puncture his tyre!
2) go get whipped cream from 7 eleven and pour on his car..
3) buy slurpee from 7 eleven and pretend to be drunk, fake a fall and spill slurpee all over his car.
4) buy chocolate mousse and write "fucker" on his windscreen
5) scratch his car using a coin and draw a heartshape
6) throw egg on his car
7) miss zm din hav all the supplies to the ones stated above..soo the closest that she has was her anna sui lip   gloss..and it is sticky and glossy and its pink! *ting*

"i wanna put lip glos on his window!!!!!! "
i know it sounds stupid and childish but i just needed some form of revenge!
or else i know i wont be able to get over it..

of coz my fren didnt let me do it..
so i only took picture of his car to get his number plate...
seriously.. dun let me see his lousy honda  (okie.. i was explaining to this fren tat only this particular honda with the number plate TUE851 is lousy.. the rest of the honda is damn cool and nice..honda drivers.. pls dun get offended*) again!! i will definitely vandalise it every single time i see it.. i swear*

anywayss...
when we were walking to my car after movies.. the car is still parked there!
after i sent my fren home..i drove past the car again when i was on my way back..
see!! it is destined! i just hafta take revenge!
there was a parking spot jus behind that lousy honda anyway..
so i stopped and planned my revenge..
i was trying to see if there's anything else from the car that i could use..
but still.. i only have my lip gloss..sighh..
so lip gloss it is!
so yeap.. i poured some lip gloss on my finger,walked out of the car..
pretending that i was on the phone and looked as if i was looking for someone..
walked past the car and smudge the lip gloss on his window! whoa! that felt damn good okay!!!!
omgggg.. first revenge.. tick!
damn shiok larh.. then i pretended tat nothing happened and jus walked easefully back into my car..
but then. i felt like once is not enuf...
so then.. i redid the same thing..but this time i smugde abit on his door handle..
nah! trying to mess with miss zm huh!
have a taste of some pink, sticky,glossy,shiny,anna sui lip gloss on ur lousy honda pls!
ur welcome yea.. stupid fucker! hope u'd like the pinkiness on ur bloody window..
GO TO HELL!

and so.. i drove back home feeling damn shiok!

later tat night.. i called and complained to so many people larh..
just knot take it larh.. oh my god..
i dunno what's wrong larh.. i just hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it..

and this is just someth to share..
my fren told me this other way to puncture a person's tyre..
jus get a tiny little stone.. stuff it into the hole on the rim of the tyre where u pump air in..
and put the cap back in and he wont be able to drive his car anymore..
the tyre will be completely deflated!

omgggg..omgg omggg omgggomgggomggomggomggg.
crazinesss weiiii.. sighhhh..
okie larh.. i guess i was pms-ing yesterday that i reacted soo overly!
but plss lorh.. u guys out there! it is damn ungentleman-ish to fight for a carpark with a girl okay!
any fucker who does this!u're the lousiest loser-pig+monkeyfaced-asshole-uselesspieceofshit-i'mrunningoutofwords...BAH! wateva larh..screw you!

okiee.. i'm finally relieved now! =)